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If He Had Lived: Day 1

It's been a long time. My brother emailed me today, he included a picture, He's looking really good these days. He's now a lawyer. Seems like the total opposite of his youth. Sorry, I suppose you need background, my brother is two years younger then I am.

My parents tell tales of how when he was born, the first person to touch him aside from the doctors, and before he was cleaned off was me. I nearly lept from my father's arms to give him a kiss and welcome him to the world. Soon after our mother had been declared unfit by the courts and my father was given sole custody of my brother and I. We grew from there, but, him being younger made him slightly resent me, and, since I was a paragon, he became a renegade. Always disobeying our father and being energetic.

He once broke his collar bone wrestling with a cousin on a bed while going for a drop kick and hitting the bed spring. He was always a clown, Quick with a smile and a joke to try to diffuse the situation then too. A social butterfly he had many friends, it was rare not to see him in the middle of a crowd and with several people listening to his anecdotes. Though not popular, his nature of being quick to take a dare lead him to travel in circles far different then mine.

If it's not painfully obvious by my writing in the first place, I'm an introvert. The fewer people that are close to me, the better. I've always been this way. Solitary and stoic, I let myself enjoy some of the arts, and, writing seemed to be my passion for a while, that was before English 2 in college that is. Interpretation of other people's works far as books go, scanning for messages that may or may not be there is a waste to me. Sorry, that interlude felt necessary, though for the life of me, I'm unsure of why.

Back on topic, Family was the most important thing in my life while growing up. No internet or computer until middle school I had to actually make physical friends, or, just have family for social interaction. Not being the type who liked other people, for reasons both valid and invalid, Family were the people I could rely on, the people I interacted with most. So when we went to that concert…

That night, we were on our way to the state fair. A classic rock band my father liked was playing and he got tickets, we were going to experience our first true concert. We were excited, but, everything just seemed to not want us to go, my dad dislocated his shoulder, and, put it back in within minutes, our car at the time, didn't want to start, and then… Then at a stop light two guys ran up to the car. Both with guns. They ordered us out, and, to leave the keys and any money in the car. My brother, 14 at the time, tried to wrestle the gun from one of the men.

He was shot in the face. I held him as the paramedics were called. Though I knew there was no hope. I watched his eyes grow dull, his chest stopped moving, and his body, just stop, by the time the ambulance got there He was gone. The paramedics did what they could but, they didn't try long, after a couple of minutes they announced him dead, though, they knew he was gone well before that. I think they just tried for our benefit.
After that day, I wasn't very close with anyone. I couldn't bring myself to allow for such a loss again and so, I did the only thing I could think to do, geared up and joined the military. I traveled the world with the air force. My life as a mechanic on heavy aircraft had me flying across the world, and, allowed me time to think. What would he be like now? Where would his life be? Who would he be? I started to write stories of a theoretical life for him.

In one story he had been a grifter. Professionally gambling across the United states. He had stumbled onto a massive conspiracy when a man hand openly caught him palming the queen in 3 Card Monty only to end up stealing the man's security ID and entering a corporate facility where he discovered that there were cloning facilities for the world's elite. That one was an early work, and, I am horrible with dialogue, so, I scrapped it. Another had him as a Renown surgeon. That one was because I had been playing WAY too much Trauma Center. Never in my imaginings could I have been prepared for the email I received just this morning.

“Yo Bro,
Been an Extremely long time. Let's get together tomorrow. Lunch? Meet you around noon at the little cafe on Broadway, Or would it be better to meet at the Green Lounge at 8? Let me know, I really want to tell you about my first case. Some guy is suing his wife for her adulterous relationships. I warned him not to go for the young fillies. Anyhow, see you soon? I really want to know, so I hope you reply.
Best Wishes, Billy”

I'm too curious to be cautious for this one. We're meeting at the Green lounge. I'm going to find out who is this sick, and, what this twisted person really wants. Though, I do have to say, the photo does look like him… Older, but, similar, who could be this cruel?


I'll make sure to use my skills roughly honed from years of rewrite and edits to the same stories to document all encounters with this individual. So in closing, I'll welcome all who find this. If you get enjoyment from this saga, great. I start this only to record my encounters with this person that claims to be my brother. We shall see where the rabbit hole leads together I suppose.

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